I Have A Lot Of Anxiety - 1011 Words

I use to have a lot of anxiety. I don’t know how it started; I think maybe I got too deep in thought and my brain started focusing on the worst case scenarios, for every situation. Before learning on how to deal with my anxiety, I learned to hide it, to bottle it up inside and play the role like everything was fine. When I was nine, my parents and I decided that I would go to camp that summer; however, before I was supposed to leave, I got so anxious that I did not even want to go. â€Å"Michael, what is the matter?† said my Dad. I sat nervously, unable to eat my food at the breakfast restaurant we were at. â€Å"Nothing, I’m fine,† I said. The real truth was that I was nervous about going to camp. My Dad could always tell when something was†¦show more content†¦It made my stomach hurt, my heart race, and my head ache. I was so anxious, I could not even eat the food I ordered. My stomach growled loudly, but my brain told me I was full and could not eat. A small thing of yogurt lay in front of me, I could not even eat a small spoonful of it. I tried to eat some of the yogurt. It was very creamy, it tasted like vanilla and it had an artificial taste of strawberries. My Dad told me, â€Å"You are making yourself sick by thinking of all that could go wrong when you are at camp.† What does that even mean? I thought in my head. How could I make myself sick? My Dad noticed the confused look on my face and started to explain how I could make myself sick. â€Å"When you get anxious your brain sends signals down to your nerves to work faster, this can make you have a racing heart and a headache.† I understood what he meant, but I didn’t know how to stop it. He even told me that the only way to really get rid of my anxiety was to go to camp and see that it was nothing to worry about. I was still very nervous when me and my Dad left the diner, but I wanted to get rid of this awful feeling I had. The rest of my family was back at my house, and my Dad was the only person taking me to camp. There were many turns on the road leading to camp. What started off as a suburban town setting quickly turned into a dense forest. The sickening smell of car exhaust faded into a sweet smelling